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"hey girl did you know, i miss you so though it may not show, thinking of you and those crazy times we’ve had.." (him)
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the night before idul fitri day.
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him: would you forgive me? for everything i did to you in the past..
her: it's all done. i did forgive you before you asked me to.
him: thank you, i'm glad to hear that. hmm, can i asked you more? would you do me a pavor?
her: what is that? i'll help you as i can.
him: take a picture of you right now and put it as your bbm display picture.
her: ow, okay.. wait a minute..
her: done! don't get surprised when see my pic, i gain more weight =p
him: no, you still looks the same her.
her: really? haha, thank you, i take your words as a compliment =d
him: your welcome, my dear. hope you always be my her. =)
her: err, your her? your lil sis, right?
him: no, you're not a lil sis for me. but you're the woman who gave me a sweet and lovely memories, you always have a place in my heart.
her: well.. i don't regret the day when i met you, the time we had together. you give me memories too.
him: you always gave me a huge smile and laugh.
her: that's because i'm glad to see your smile and laugh, if the person i loved feel happy, it could make me happy too.
him: it's pathetic, isn't it? two person have the same feeling but get separated and then choose the different path of life. hope doraemon is real.
her: sometimes, i hope the same way too. so i can turn back to the time when we're together. but.. here we are, the fact is, you have a new life and a great wife. if we're still together, i'm afraid that you wouldn't be happier than now. because you looks more happy without me. =')
him: you are the woman who will make a man happy when he have you, your heart. you are the woman who will make a man feel important and special, because i've been there, but, unfortunately, i wasted it. sometimes, i wish you were the person who will stand by my side now. it's been so long i keep this feeling because i never have a courage, and tonight, the burden in my heart is getting less. i know i have to let this feeling go, when the time is come, i won't regret it because all is revealed to you.
her: well, thank you for being honest and tell your feeling to me. because i never know what is deep inside your heart when we're together. =(
him: i'm sorry for being a coward and hurt you. =(
her: it's fine, now, him. hmm, just wondering.. if i never been in a relationship with your bestfriend, would you get me back or the situation just still the same as now?
him: when you told me that my bestfriend is going after you, and i said 'be with him', one side of my heart want you to stay with me but another side i want to see my bestfriend happy. if he's not my bestfriend, i will never ever let you go.
her: i never forget that conversation, the day when you let me go. that's why i thought that you don't have the same feeling like the way i feel. so i decide to let my feeling go before it kill me.
him: it's kill me too but the important thing was see you both happy. two person i loved being together. am i an idiot?
her: you're not an idiot. that was my decision to be with him, although we knew at first that we'll never going anywhere because of the family principal. it's me, an idiot.
him: no, you're not. you decide it because i let you go, i keep blame my self since that time. i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry..
her: ssshh, stop that. i've learned a lot from what happened to me anyway. maybe we're not mean to be together in this life, maybe we're just meant to be each other's memories.
him: i don't want to end this conversation, because it's hard to find the moment like this.
her: but, we have to. life keeps on moving, and we can't stay in the past. the fact, in present time, your place is not in my future. so do i.
him: yeah, i know. would you promise me something?
her: what is that?
him: promise me that you'll be happy with your little family. so, i will stop blame my self and be happy with mine too.
her: yes, i promise.
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"oh i can’t tell..‘cause you make me feel so loved and confused. this conversation may never happen.." (her)
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